| 11:21 (10/4/09) |
[Oct. 5th, 2009|07:52 pm] |
I sit up in bed unable to sleep.
Outside cars pass by on the road below me.
The night is cool and I am warm under the covers.
Sleep has eluded me thus far.
I rose from the bed.
Repeating some of my night time routine
has not left me feeling any closer to sleep.
Walking through he hall to the living room
the floor creaks under my steps.
In the living room I find this tablet,
then the pen I was given as a gift.
I return to my room in darkness.
I turn the lamp on next to my bed
to begin writing.
I am warm again under the covers.
The cars continue to pass by outside.
Sleep is closer now.
I set down the tablet & pen
then turn out the light
Hopefully to begin the journey of dreams. |
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| And the wheels just keep on turning |
[Nov. 18th, 2008|10:40 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  tired | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "The Impossible Dream" by Peter O'Toole | ] |
It seems time keeps moving. As Brett Butler once stated, the loneliness was still there, but it was getting louder and easier to dance to.
I've poured my day hours into work for a very long time. I think its nearly time for another vacation. I wonder what I should do this time. I think it would be nice to go somewhere warm perhaps.
I think I need make time to start doing more volunteer work. I helped people brush snow off their cars tonight as I was leaving FA and it reminded me how good doing nice things for others makes me feel. Maybe RYP or SVR will have another event soon.
I'm looking forward to Thanksgiving weekend! Family, friends, food, and a huge special event! And 4 days of not working!
7:30 am to 7pm tonight. Several of us stayed until the end... I feed bad for the girl who missed out on date night. Perhaps what doesn't kill me will continue to make me stronger... |
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| (no subject) |
[Nov. 5th, 2008|08:35 pm] |
Tell me there's a logic out there.
Leading me to better prepare
For the day that something really special might come. |
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| Heading back for the weekend |
[Oct. 24th, 2008|07:32 pm] |
I'm really tired. I've been working tons of hours since the summer. I'm heading back to OH tonight to pick up my new car... I hope my old one has enough left in it for 1 more trip home... Its kind of on its last legs...
on a white ship shall I sail,
watching shadows pass for me |
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| Forthwith this frame of mine was wrenched, |
[Oct. 16th, 2008|11:46 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  discontent | ] |
Work is consuming my life. I started today at 7:30 am, and left at 8:40pm. Not all days are this long, but I do feel more and more burned out. My manager is afraid to let me take days off. Since she joined us, I took a week off and someone left. Last week I took a day off, and someone walked out too. We're understaffed and overworked. I bought a Honda Fit when I was back in Ohio, and now I need to find the time to go pick it up. This weekend is out...
I'm starting tomorrow at 7am. Hopefully I can leave at a decent hour.
Goodnight all. |
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| I pass, like night, from land to land |
[Oct. 14th, 2008|11:43 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  listless | ] |
| [ | music |
| | "Chains of Misery" by Iron Maiden | ] |
Much is going on these days. This has changed little in the past months...
My life is consumed by work. Even in my free hours it haunts my dreams. I feel the change that is coming is immense... |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 23rd, 2008|08:52 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | restless | ] |
'In Brightest Day,
In Blackest Night,
No Evil Shall Escape My Sight.
Let Those Who Worship Evil's Might
Beware My Power --
Green Lantern's Might.'
This is my first update in awhile. I've been pretty busy lately. Work is consuming my life. I've been putting in nearly 60 hours a week for the last 2 weeks. Prior to that, I took a week +2 days off. Before that I was at about 55 hours a week. Next month should be better... hopefully.
My life currently lacks balance. I need to restore that. I also need to resume my training... P&G is coming, and I need to hit the pool to build up my endurance. Perhaps tomorrow afternoon... |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 4th, 2008|11:37 am] |
A later departure than planned, but worth the good times of the night before.
on a white ship shall I sail,
watching shadows pass for me |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 17th, 2008|11:05 pm] |
| [ | music |
| | "The Real Folk Blues" by Yoko Kanno | ] |
A ruffled mind makes a restless pillow. ~Charlotte Brontë |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 5th, 2008|11:48 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  thoughtful | ] |
The night grows longer and sleep has not yet claimed me. The weight of the week has not broken me, still I stand.
I've had a long week. 10 hour days M, W, Th, and 11.25 on T... I'm looking forward to the weekend. I took a half day tomorrow. The plans were to head home and have dinner with the fam, but when I heard about the east end fest this Friday, I changed my mind.
Last year I think I got a touch of food poisoning before the EEF. I ended up calling ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) mfisher and Maria to come rescue me as I was in a rough state. This year will be different. And I'll probably bring ear plugs.
Modified agenda: work, home, nap, pack, meet up with Elizabeth & Kim, wander though the east end fest, and then head home around 9ish. I'll make it back to Perry around 1am I think.
I'm weary but not yet tired. I'm looking forward to seeing my folks this weekend. Dad has a new shed that we'll fill with firewood, and Mom said she needs my help with some things too. And I'll get to see Grandma too. There is something I should claim as well....
2 quotes & then I'm off...
"the traveler can keep walking forward because he has something which sustains him..."
On a white ship shall I sail,
Watching shadows pass for me
Goodnight all, and have a great weekend! |
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| quotes in random places |
[May. 19th, 2008|10:30 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  calm | ] |
I was watching the big bang theory tonight and was amused that a quote box appeared briefly after the credits the end. Fortunately Tivo did not cut off this nugget of wisdom, and I was able to rewind and pause the screen so I could read the quote, and in turn research its origin.
CHUCK LORRE PRODUCTIONS, #212
I believe that the voices of fear, both from without and within, can only be dispelled by trusting the voice that comes from the heart. Be still and listen to it. If it speaks of love and compassion for others, for the world itself, it just might be the voice of God -- or a reasonable facsimile. If, however, it snarls with fear of the unknown, fear of losing what you have or of not getting what you want, then it just might be the voice of Rupert Murdoch -- or a reasonable facsimile.
http://www.chucklorre.com/index.php?p=212
It seems that Chuck Lorre tosses in a quote at the end of some of his shows. Some are pretty interesting, while others are merely pictures. Some are really deep too. I wonder if anyone else might find this amusing.
I guess I ought to head off to bed.
I'll be going back to OH this weekend. I think I'll come back on Sunday afternoon so I can have a day off here. |
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| random thoughts... |
[Jan. 28th, 2008|10:25 pm] |
If an apple a day keeps the doctor away...
and school children used to give apples to their teachers way back in the day
was this really an intellegent ploy to help the teachers stay healthy while surrounded by their disease infested students?
:-)
I'm heading back to Perry this weekend. I have a birthday gift for mom that I need to give her, and I haven't seen Grandma since she got out of the hospital. + Elizabeth is going out of town for the weekend too, so its a great time to go do my own thing. |
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| Its the little things |
[Jan. 8th, 2008|06:28 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | good | ] |
I got my RG&E bill... its only $13 !!!
I feel like I won the lottery... I'm used to it being 4 times that!
:-) |
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| late... |
[Dec. 21st, 2007|12:17 am] |
I haven't posted in a long time.
I'm heading home tomorrow for an early Christmas with the fam on Saturday. I'll be back in ROC Sunday night. I wish you all a Merry Christmas!
On a white ship shall I sail,
Watching shadows pass for me |
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| excerpt from HEROES |
[Nov. 19th, 2007|11:15 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | good | ] |
Such a great show. Wow.
Hiro about his father:
I refuse to eulogize my father.
To eulogize him is to admit he is gone.
My father is not dead...
Kaito Nakamura taught me right from wrong.
What it means to be a hero...
So long as the lessons live on through me...
he will never die.
My father taught me to understand that...
certain things are in God's hands.
But for everything else...
God has given us the gift of choice.
My father gave me the tools to fight the battles ahead.
Every hand I extend in kindness is his hand.
And every blow that I strike for justice is his fist.
So long as the lessons he taught stay with me.
And so long as he lives on in my heart.
Then my father is never truly dead.
Wow. This makes me miss my family. I'm glad I'll see most of them soon.
I haven't posted in awhile. I guess a lot has been going on. Work is work. So many things are changing...
I'm dating a nice girl. She doesn't want to be mentioned too much online. So I'll respect that. We go dancing every Sunday afternoon. She's much better than me, but we have fun anyway.
Congrats to Angel that Mike came home! I hope you guys are doing well!
I hope your eye surgery went well Sarah!
Congrats on passing the bar J!
To everyone else who hasn't posted recently, or who happens across my journal, I hope you have a great Thanksgiving!
I'll end this in my usual way before taking off on a trip (even though I'm leaving Wednesday)...
On a white ship shall I sail,
Watching shadows pass for me... |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 10th, 2007|10:06 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | good | ] |
Awesome date night.
`nuff said. :-) |
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| ok. |
[Aug. 31st, 2007|12:27 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | tired | ] |
So I'm in my new place. I just got the internet & cable hooked up today. I've still got a fair list of things to do before I'm completely settled, but that's why I took tomorrow off too. + I have Monday off... :-)
I miss having other people around. I guess its going to take some getting used to about living alone.
I feel like a change is on the horizon.... |
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